Wednesday, August 17, 2011

THIS IS HARD.....

When CM was little she cried ALL the time (colic) and Sam and I thought it was so hard and we couldn't wait until she grew out of it.  We just knew that life would be easier then.....

When CM was 1 until she was about 4 she wouldn't sleep in her bed.  She would crawl in bed with us or sleep on the couch and Sam and I thought it was so hard and we were convinced that we would never get a good night's sleep again.  We just knew that life would be easier when she finally started sleeping in her own bed.........

Those things were nothing compared to today......

She tried out for the 6th grade volleyball team and didn't make it.  She loves playing volleyball and couldn't wait until she could be on the team at school.  She is crushed and Sam and I aren't much better.  Not so much because she didn't make it but because she is upset and hurting.  This was something she really wanted and we had hoped she would have some success here.  She was so brave and waited until she got to the car before she really lost it.  Now the tears have come off and on throughout the evening along with the questions......

Why are some kids good at everything?
Was I that bad during tryouts?
Why do you think I didn't make the team?
Why did "she" make the team?
Why didn't God want me on the team?

Teaching kids to handle disappointment gracefully.....now that is difficult when all I want to do is lash out at the coaches or snipe about how she is just as good as this child or that one.   But that won't help her learn and that isn't what God expects from me.....

Tonight we did our "back to school" dinner (for more details go HERE).  Our verse for the year was very fitting for tonight. 

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. 
Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. 
Plans to give you a hope and a future. -Jeremiah 29:11

We have spent time praying with CM and meditating on the verse and it seems to be helping......a bit. 

The other thing that is helping is remembering that this is merely a blip on the radar and in the grand scheme of things, not that important.  We have friends who recently lost their 6 year old son to a cause yet to be determined and we know of many others who have children who are sick. 

But I'd be lying if I said tonight is not a struggle......seeing your child disappointed is TOUGH!!  It makes colic and lack of sleep seem like a piece of cake!

4 comments:

Ryan and Katie said...

I am sorry you have to watch your daughter hurt. Hoping that God's Word will help her.

The Millers said...

I just want to hug you both! Now I have to admit, I'm a little more nervous-McK has soccer tryouts that were moved to the day she already has her sports physical and a Kayak class - in sharks-have-been-sighted-here-before-water! Too much for a mama to dwell on sometimes. Here's to next year CM!

Divapalooza said...

Okay - I teared up a little bit reading this post. I love the verse. What a good reminder that no matter how things seem God has plans for us. I can’t believe your daughter is in the 6th grade. They are growing up so fast. {{hugs}}

Anonymous said...

Did you tell her that even Michael Jordan was cut from the team his sophomore year of high school?

Sorry she (and you) had to go through this.

Lisa